I feel so useless in here doing nothing. I wake up, go to work and the days I bar tend, I am gone until 2am. Then I drink or paint and go to bed and then do it all over again the next day.
I wish I was of more good than what I am now.
I want to do something to help the Order and the cause. I feel a need to do so. Maybe that will help settle my thoughts and the nightmares I get almost every night now.
HEXED TO TERRY
Oh, Terry mate do you remember what happened on Friday night? I was so pissed drunk that I don't remember anything. Well I do remember some snippets, but few and some would be the key words for it all. I vaguely remember you asking if I kissed you or some rubbish like that. Am I just imagining things?
Do you remember anything else?
I sold two paintings on Friday, which was a nice change. Usually people just come into the gallery and look and compliment my art. They usually don't actually buy anything. I hope this is a start of a change. It is nice having the spare cash at my disposal as well. I needed some new paints and canvases.
Oh and this is a few weeks removed but belated Happy New Years.